I have allowed myself to become heavily distracted in so many ways. I am beginning to believe that this is, and has always been a result of long held, and unchecked tensions. It began with singing, but there are so many other crucial areas that I can relate to this belief.

My innards have been tight as a drum for years and years. I have felt this, but never fully understood it. It has effectively robbed me of enjoying pretty much everything. I just have to ‘unstick’ all those things that got stuck.

I think I’ll be better once I learn to really and truly relax all of me.

First things first. To prepare my mind, I’m going to cleanse my body with a fast.

I don’t know how long it will last.