Let yourself jump ahead in time,

to the day when you are free

from the pain and sorrow,

and you will look back

on the distant memory

of how you almost died,

but somehow you lived through it.


It’s amazing, even suicide prevention lines are automated these days. Imagine, you are desperate, and you hear a recording tell you, all representatives are busy. If you are are having a crisis, please hang up and call 911 or head to the nearest emergency room. Oh, like anyone who wants to crawl in a hole and overdose on barbituates wants to attract that sort of attention.

So, the advice went something like this,

Well, you go to school right?


Ok, so find someone you know in your class and strike up a conversation.


As if that would change anything, or relieve the pain somehow. Just another disappointment in a long line of disappointments. And all I can think about is Gene Wilder.

“You get nothing, you lose, good day sir.”